Kemana aku pergi orang yang aku kenali akan bertanya: Bagaimana dengan hidup anda sekarang? Bukan mengenai kesihatanku tapi berkenaan kerja baru ku. Aku akan sering menjawab OK! Dengan huruf besar sambil ku tersenyum. Ya, kalau dikira dari senyumanku, aku amatlah gembira dengan keadaanku sekarang. Bukan kerana pendapatan yang setimpal, gaji yang besar, claim yang mengunung, tapi aku PUAS! PUAS dengan cara hidup dan kerja aku yang lebih dekat dengan alam semulajadi ciptaan Tuhan. Mungkin dengan cara ini sajalah aku dapat membalas budi kepada pencipta alam semesta ini; dengan mencintai dan mempertahanankan kazanah bumi.

Walaupun aku bingung memikirkan apa yang akan berlaku dikemudian hari kelak, namun, perasaanku hilang bila secara tidak sengaja terserempak dengan hidupan liar ataupun pemandangan yang jarang sekali kita lihat di depan mata kita sendiri secara langsung. Perasaan yang bercampur aduk bermain di hati. terfikir juga aku, kenapa masih ada juga orang  yang masih tidak menghargai keajaiban dan kecantikkan alam ini.

Apa yang aku ingin katakan disini adalah; aku memang bersa gembira dan senang hati dengan cara hidup aku dimasa ini. Tidak ada perkataan lain yang dapat ku ucapkan melainkan berbanyak bersyukur dan berterima kasih diatas segala yang telah dan akan aku lalui. Aku menjadi begitu kecil bila aku berdepan dengan keajaiban alam sekitar….

Bagaimana dengan anda?

The dreams and imaginations came true. No longer a dreams or just a simple plan. Saturday 20, 2007 - The date that should not be forgotten by all of us. I am not exaggerate but amazingly after a while all of us including those who are in the first place thought that the could not manage the climb reached the summit!

Started the journey early in the morning and in the mist, all of us start to make the ascending to the summit. Half way of the trails, the rain poured heavily and made the trails become more slippery and muddy. With a strong will and a little bit of motivation from the friends, we continue the journey up to the top.

Along the way, the sound of rain, birds, monkeys filled up the jungle and creating a nature music. Leeches every way in the path and I was telling my friends that only lucky person will get the bite. Half way to the top, Chi’s sandal snap! we have to stop in order to repair it. The group is now split in to two! They have to continue or otherwise none of us reach the top. It’s a very long and winding trails as when you think that you are already there, you are not! It’s keep going on and on and on likes never ending trails.

At last the first group reach the top at 12.30 noon and the second group (which I was in the group) at 1.00 pm. The feeling of achievement fill-up the air as everybody smiling happily. We took our lunch at the top (Bee Hoon Goreng, Ground nuts, crackers, cola etc) while some of us repairing their sandals and shoes. After half an hour rest, we make our move to decent the summit. It’s took us for about only 2 hour descending the summit with a few what we called " cempedak guguk" - we started to slip and fall down because of the muddy and slippery trails. Reach the chalet at 4.30 pm and preparing for our BBQ for the night.

To all of us namely; Our sponsor - Douglas, Cheery (forgive me if I spell your name wrongly), Mei Hua, Melveen, Max, Cynthia, Sharon, Madin, Cikgu (some how I can’t remember your name-sorry), Ben, Mo-en and our two logistic person, Ahmad and Rowena (they are not couple!) and of course my beloved wife, Wendy, I would like to personally congratulate and thank you all for the support, your valuable time and your effortless contributions not only for this trip but for all the trip that we had together, the hardship and the happiness. I hope this is not my last trip with you people after I am at my new place. Deeply thanks to you all.

-Nick-

Sometime, I just wonder whether it is the right time for me to leave or I just stay foot with my old job. I just tenderred my resignation last week and I guest with hope that I am making a right decision for my future.

Some reaction shows from the collegue, but I guest I will face a lot of questions and criticise or may be a little bit of advise from those people who really know about everything… or maybe assuming they know everything…Well, the main point is that I do need room to breath after three years working and hoping for something to happen! And, it didn’t work out as I planned.

The opportunity comes only once (thou I had two…) so I took it. As for the result, I’ll be working for other organization of my choice and favor. It’s been almost a decade I am waiting for the opportunity to come and…that’s it! Enough is enough…I need to improve and prove to my self that I can do much better with the challenges outside…even outside from the city…or even in the rural area…That is what challenge are…away from the people, away from the city, away from the poltical issues, away from the family that can really teach you to become more faithfull and grateful BUT closer to nature and the philosophy of what is life all about…

Until then, I hope I can face the challenges with all my heart and all the knowledge that I had. To all my collegue, thank you very much and it’s really a pleasure and fun to work with you all beside all the things happened to each one of us every day. Good luck and God bless. Amen.

It’s holiday and it’s relaxing time…After the whole year working and struggling to upgrade your self and knowedge, to gain salary each months, it’s time for us to relax and reflect our action and our progress by the end of this year…Yes…,REFLECT is the good words…We should ask our self with this questions( Maybe):-

1. What did I achieve this year?

2. What did I gained this year?

3. Did I do good or bad this year?

4. What’s for next year?

Talking about next year, I hope something new and exciting happen to me…New environment, new collegue, new bosses, new way of working…etc…

Nothing much for me to talk and write about this year…met a lot of friends this year, online or out the line hehehehhe…see a lot of tragedy, sceen and story of life….(darn….i lost my words already…don’t know what am I goona write anymore….)

Ok…goodbye 2006 and welcome 2007….

October 22nd,2006. Venue: Wind Cave, Bau.

Speacial thanks to Kuci, Topezz, Dauglas, Morin, Ryan, Joseph, Bernard, Elmer, Lyn and to those that I did not mention here. I can call it a success for the mini gathering thou not many turn-up. Maybe because of something else…Anyway, for those who are coming that day, I would like to thank them for the hospitality given to me and my family. Even thou, I did not have the oppurtunity know you guys better (gee…need to go back early that day) but for me, you guys ROCK! Hope to see you people outside the forum…Kudos to all.

Cheers.

This two week I was so worried when GepGep get ill. It’s started with his nose bleeding and then he started to get weaker and weaker until today. I did  bring him to the vet for check-up and purchase two types of medicine for him. He only took the medicine for two days and then STOP! Because nobody monitor his daily food and medicine while I was working.

Today, I have to bring him to see the doctor again because his eyes getting blur and I guess infected. So, the doc give him two shoot of medicine; tick-fever and viral infection. Now he is quite ok and relaxs. I hope by tomorrow he will get well or else another med. check-up for him on Sunday…

Dalam dua tiga minggu nie aku rasa very depressed and distressed. Aku sik tauk kenapa dan mengapa tetapi aku betul-betul hilang fokus terhadap kerja dan perkara yang berlaku disekeliling aku. Aku rasa macam ada aje yang tidak kena dengan apa saja benda yang aku buat. Sayu, sepi, sedih dan kecewa semuanya ada. Adakah ini petanda-petanda yang aku akan melangkah ke satu era baru (dewasa)? Ataupun aku sangat takut untuk menghadapi kenyataan? Atau aku takut dengan pencipta alam dan manusia.

Setelah mengimbas kembali semua perkara yang berlaku selama ini, aku terfikir setakat ini sajakah kejayaan aku? Tidak!!! Aku tidak akan mengalah kepada dunia ini…Aku akan terus berjuang untuk kehidupan dan kebahagiaan aku serta orang-orang disekeliling aku walaupun pengorbanan perlu ku lakukan.

Kini aku telah faham dan aku telah kembali ke rupa asal aku. Lihatlah dunia aku akan buktikan yang tiada apa dapat menghalang aku daripada mencapai cita-citaku kecuali Tuhan sahaja. Terima kasih kepada mereka yang telah berada disampingku ketika aku didalam kegelapan dan kedaifan. Sokongan mereka telah membakar semangat ku untuk bangun daripada tersungkur ke bumi.

Sekian.

Dealova - Once

Diari Seorang Lelaki

August 19-20, 2006 - Trip ke Gading National Park (GNP) akhirnya dijalankan. Projek besar yang telah dirancang selama satu tahun dan baru tahun tok dapat dilaksanakan.

Bertolak dari rumah Doug, kamek orang singgah untuk makan di Batu 7. Sampei jak di Lundu dalam pukul 11.30 camya. Terus check-in di GNP. Relak sekejap and terus ke pasar Lundu untuk meli 4-10 and other food.

Dalam pukul 1.00, kemek orang meneruskan aktiviti seterusnya , iaitu mendaki ke puncak Gading. Setelah 30 minit berjalan, ada yang sik mok teruskan ke puncak so sidaknya pergi ke waterfall 1. Kamek orang teruskan perjalanan ke Waterfall 7 (2 jam ke puncak). Sebab hari udah terlalu lambat (3.30pm) kamek orang decided not to proceed. Takut turun lambat dari atas and terperangkap dalam kegelapan.

Tangga naik ke SESCO Dam

Half way ke atas

Waterfall 7

Udah mandi di waterfall 7. Kamek orang pun turun untuk persediaan BBQ. Masa iya hari ujan, so sik banyak benda boleh dipolah semadi nunggu hari ujan. Nangga cerita kartun jak. Lepas ujan, barulah dapur BBQ berasap under supervision Padin dan Wilson. Aku join in setelah beberapa minit kemudian. Geng-geng yang lain pula, menolong dengan cara sidaknya yang tersendiri.

BBQ - Padin, aku & Wilson

Yammy….

Lepas BBQ, makanlah kamek orang dalam gelap dan bercahayakan lilin. Sebabnya? Black-out sik habis-habis. Dekat nak 20 kalilah black-out hari iya ajak. Entahlah apa problemnya…Let’s SESCO pikirkan….After makan we all berborak,bercerita sambil makan lagi…ada juak yang main ‘pot’…Dalam 12 malam, semua masuk tidur…lelah tengahari tadik…

August 20, 2006 - Pagi tok kamek orang bercadang mok mandi di Jungle Pool selepas breakfast. Ada yang bangun awal untuk sediakan breakfast. Ada yang nangga cerita kartun. Then, ke Jungle Pool!!!. Di Jungle Pool, kamek orang lega sebab airnya sik kotor macam kemarik. Lepas hujan kemarik, semuanya udah ok. So, apa lagik? Mandilah…paling best Orochimaru akhirnya menunjukan jurus yang dipelajari daripada Mist Village (Jurus terapung di atas air). Kakashi pula menunjukkan jurusnya (Jurus Pembalikan Badan). Kawasan Jungle Pool jadi meriah disebabkan oleh kamek orang jak.

Orochimaru - Jurus Terapung atas Air

Kakashi -Jurus Pembalikan Badan

Lepas mandi, kamek orang berkemas untuk pulang sebab masa iya ada orang mok check-in. After bergambar kenangan kamek orang berangkat ke Pandan. Pantai yang cantik, tapi mun ada public facilities yang baik, kebersihan pantai iya mesti ok. Mana MDL? Lepak sekejap disia and proceed ke Lundu untuk makan tengahari. Ada juak crisis dengan tauke tempat makan nya. Kamek orang macam kenak tipu, tapi biarlah…ada orang yang lebih mengetahui. Lepas iya, kamek orang pun pulang ke Kuching….

Moen, Ben, Padin, Melveen, Dog, Cherry, Mei Hua, Wilfred, Valentine, Wilson, Wena and Wendy, aku ucapkan syabas dan terima kasih kerana menjayakan aktiviti ini. Walaupun sik sampei atas, next time kita gerenti akan conquer atas Gunung ya. Tunggu…..

Next…Air Terjun Sematan